Friday, February 28, 2025

SERIES REVIEW and BLOG TOUR - To Sicily with Love


Title: Our Italian Summer
Author Jennifer Probst
Series:   Meet Me In Italy
Publisher:  Berkley
Genre:   Women’s Fiction; Romance 
Format:  Audiobook
No. of Pages:   384
Date of Publication:   January 12, 2021
My Rating:   5 Stars

DESCRIPTION:

From New York Times bestselling author Jennifer Probst comes a new women's fiction novel featuring three generations of Ferrari women who need to heal the broken pieces of their lives...and one trip of a lifetime through Italy.

Workaholic, career-obsessed Francesca is fiercely independent and successful in all areas of life except one: family. She struggles to make time for her relationship with her teenage daughter, Allegra, and the two have become practically strangers to each other. When Allegra hangs out with a new crowd and is arrested for drug possession, Francesca gives in to her mother's wish that they take one epic summer vacation to trace their family roots in Italy. What she never expected was to be faced with the choice of a lifetime. . . .

Allegra wants to make her grandmother happy, but she hates the idea of forced time with her mother and vows to fight every step of the ridiculous tour, until a young man on the verge of priesthood begins to show her the power of acceptance, healing, and the heartbreaking complications of love.

Sophia knows her girls are in trouble. A summer filled with the possibility for change is what they all desperately need. Among the ruins of ancient Rome, the small churches of Assisi, and the rolling hills of Tuscany, Sophia hopes to show her girls that the bonds of family are everything, and to remind them that they can always lean on one another, before it's too late.

MY THOUGHTS:

Three generations of Ferrari women are traveling to Italy. Sophia is the matriarch and is hoping that this trip will bring her and her daughter Francesca and her granddaughter Allegra closer together. There has definitely been a disconnect and Sophia hopes to change that. 

The scenery is certain to be idyllic and hopefully some of the problems they have will be able to be ironed out. The trip is going to be going to be hard on each of them for different reasons. For Francesca, she is tethered to her phone, as her career has taken first place in her life. With regard to Allegra, a recent drug possession charge has both Francesca and Sophie quite concerned. Will this trip be the last line of defense for Sophia, making this a desperate final attempt to bond the three of them?

Allegra’s grandmother Sophie feels that her granddaughter has just got mixed up with the wrong crowd and hopes that Francesca will really see Allegra, will reconnect with her daughter. The trip proves bright for Allegra as she meets a young man planning on going into the priesthood. The two spend a lot of time together and this becomes a healing bond to Allegra. Francesca struggles to put her phone down and continues to handle meetings and crisis after crisis despite being thousands of miles away. Especially problematic is how this affects her relationship with Allegra. Really concerned for Francesca and Allegra while Sophia has a secret is difficult to manage. She is in the middle of dealing with a serious health scare and does not want to run out of time bringing her daughter and granddaughter back together. 

Oh my, what an emotional and compelling read. It was easy to feel for and to even connect with all three of the Ferrari women. As a daughter, mother and grandmother myself, I could see myself in each of their shoes. This story was not just an emotional read filled with sadness. No, it was an uplifting read. One filled with hope and promise and the ride along the way was well worth the trip.

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Title:  The Secret Letters of Olivia Moretti
Author Jennifer Probst
Series:   Meet Me in Italy #2
Publisher:  Berkley
Genre:   Women’s Fiction; Romance
Format:  Audiobook 
No. of Pages:   384
Date of Publication:   February 22, 2022
My Rating:   5 Stars

DESCRIPTION:

A secret romance sends three estranged sisters to the Amalfi Coast to follow clues about their mother's past, and challenges them to a whole new future, in this emotional novel from New York Times bestselling author Jennifer Probst.

Priscilla, Devon, and Bailey haven't been close in years, but when the sisters are forced to come together to settle their mother's estate, they discover a secret. In an old trunk, they happen upon ownership papers for a house on the Amalfi Coast, along with a love letter to their mother from an anonymous man, promising to meet her in Italy during the summer of her sixty-fifth birthday.

Now they're questioning everything they knew about her history. In order to get answers about the woman they thought they knew, they'll have to go back to where it all started. The sisters embark on a trip to the stunning cliffside village of Positano, Italy, to track down the mysterious ex-lover, and figure out who their mother really was.

As Priscilla, Devon, and Bailey unearth the truth, they also experience the magic of Italy, the power of sisterly love, a little unexpected romance, and newfound hope for the future.

MY THOUGHTS:

Priscilla, Devon, and Bailey—three sisters estranged and vastly different—are about to settle their mother’s estate. Amidst their belongings, they stumble upon unexpected ownership papers for a house on the Amalfi Coast. Compelled by this discovery, they embark on a journey to Italy, where they must confront their past, sell the house, and reclaim their separate lives.

Pris feels disconnected from her husband. This trip with her sisters should be a good time for her to reset and to see where her future lies. Devon is the serious sister, on the spectrum, and just wants this business over. Bailey is the creative one of the trio, and feels that she couldn’t be more different from her sisters.

I loved the delivery of this novel. We get to know each sister, as well as their conflicts in both their personal lives and with each other. But we also meet and learn much about a young Olivia, their mother, and what her life was like in Greece.  Olivia’s story is intriguing. She was young and in love with the mysterious “R”. The sisters hope that their trip will uncover secrets that have been hidden for decades. 

As each of their sisters have shares in the house, it doesn’t take them long to disagree about settling. The Amalfi Coast trip emerges as a potential balm for their fractured relationship, offering an opportunity to heal and discover their future paths. 

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Title:  A Wedding in Lake Como
Author Jennifer Probst
Series:   Meet Me in Italy #3
Publisher:  Berkley
Genre:   Women’s Fiction; Romance
Format:  Kindle ARC 
No. of Pages:   400
Date of Publication:   May 14, 2024
My Rating:   5 Stars

DESCRIPTION:

A destination wedding in Italy’s Lake Como brings three best friends back together to face the secrets of the past in this romantic novel from New York Times bestselling author Jennifer Probst.

Best friends Ava, Madison, and Chelsea made a pact to reunite for each other’s weddings when their careers sent them in different directions. But after one of them makes a choice that tears the group apart, an upcoming wedding might be their last chance to heal old wounds.

Ava is about to marry the man she loves in a lavish ceremony on the shores of Lake Como, but she’s haunted by the mistakes she’s made.

Madison’s made a name for herself as an influencer in the fashion world but is threatened by a scandal impacting everything she holds dear.

And Chelsea has the perfect family she always craved, but her professional dreams have fallen by the wayside.

As they return to Italy’s gorgeous coast, the three women revisit their life-changing first trip to Lake Como during college. When Madison comes face-to-face with the college sweetheart who was at the heart of one of the most pivotal times of her life, can they forge a new way forward?

MY THOUGHTS:

Best friends Ava, Madison, and Chelsea are going back to Italy where they went when they were sophomores in college. Hopefully, they will soon be attending one another’s weddings. As this touching story unfolds, we have an after and we have a before, mostly told from Maddie’s perspective. We learn a lot about each of their women. Ava is the bright light everyone wants to be around. Chelsea is described as a straight shooter. Maddie wanted to be a model, something she would be perfect for. 

Their friendship has been frozen in time, especially after Ava’s actions shattered Chelsea’s life. Amidst this turmoil, Ava and Maddie share a secret that Chelsea remained unaware of. Ava offers Maddie something seemingly unattainable—a glimpse into a life of safety and fulfillment. Maddie is determined to protect her friend and would do anything for her. However, this bond is unhealthy, blurring the lines between friendship and something more.

Like the previous books in this series, this one is packed with depth and intrigue. While reading the series in order isn’t strictly necessary, especially considering the changing characters and locations in Italy, each book offers memorable reads that resonate with readers. We connect with the characters, their stories, and the hope they hold dear. Interestingly, while conflicts arise between the trio, I thoroughly enjoyed witnessing the evolution of these conflicts through Jennifer Probst’s writing. It offered a chance to find goodness in each character. 

Many thanks to Berkley and to NetGalley for this ARC for review. This is my honest opinion.

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Title:  To Sicily With Love
Author Jennifer Probst
Series:   Meet Me In Italy
Publisher:  Berkley
Genre:   Women’s Fiction; Romance 
Format:  Kindle ARac
No. of Pages:   384
Date of Publication:   
My Rating:   5 Stars

DESCRIPTION:

When she learns she has a big Italian family she never knew about, a lonely woman travels to Sicily for a life-changing summer in the new romance from New York Times bestselling author Jennifer Probst.

Aurora York had it all loving parents, a steady relationship, and a promising career. But after she loses both parents unexpectedly, she can’t seem to stay on track any longer. Lonely and lost after a public meltdown that threatens her professional credibility, she’s shocked when DNA test results show a blood relative in Sicily. When her cousin reaches out online and begs her to come to Italy to meet everyone in person, Aurora makes the leap.

Aurora arrives in Sicily for a month, and there she meets a colorful, dynamic family steeped in tradition. The younger generation is fascinated by her social media fame in America, and even though her grandparents have more traditional viewpoints, Aurora begins to heal from her grief…and enjoys the attention of a kind and handsome Italian man.

But when the summer ends, a new opportunity calls her back to the States and her old habits threaten to reemerge. Will Aurora leave everything in Sicily she loves behind, or take the chance on a whole new future?

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MY THOUGHTS:

Aurora, still reeling from the sudden death of her parents, is unhappy that her boyfriend Jason tells her he wants a break. As a social media influencer with a massive following, she breaks down during a podcast, causing her book contract to be delayed. Amidst her relationship issues, contractual problems, and public embarrassment, an unexpected DNA result sends her on an unexpected trip to Sicily. Unbeknownst to her, she has numerous relatives in Italy, closely related to her family tree.

Aurora plans a month-long stay in Italy, hoping to reset her life and get back on track. Discovering her Italian relatives leaves her curious about their history and why her mother kept that side of her family a secret. Learning the truth might just be the healing balm she needs, all while reveling in the attention of an attentive Italian man.

This heartwarming story feels like a coming-of-age tale. Aurora once had it all, having surpassed her personal goals. However, her losses were adding up, and this trip to Italy provided the perfect reset she needed. Faced with new choices and the newfound connection to her family, it creates a compelling story for readers who enjoy connecting with the characters. Aurora’s protagonist makes choices that ultimately lead to her happiness.

The family aspect of the story is heartwarming, especially as most of them welcome her with open arms. Aurora needs this bond with them, and it’s wonderful to witness their connection as the story unfolds. 

Many thanks to Berkley and to NetGalley for this ARC for review. This is my honest opinion.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Jennifer Probst wrote her first book at twelve years old. She bound it in a folder, read it to her classmates, and hasn’t stopped writing since. She holds a masters in English Literature and lives in the beautiful Hudson Valley in upstate New York. Her family keeps her active, stressed, joyous, and sad her house will never be truly clean. Her passions include horse racing, Scrabble, rescue dogs, Italian food, and wine—not necessarily in that order. 

She is the NYT, USA Today, and Wall Street Journal bestselling author of sexy and erotic contemporary romance. She was thrilled her book, The Marriage Bargain, spent 26 weeks on the NY Times. Her work has been translated in over a dozen countries, sold over a million copies, and was dubbed a "romance phenom" by Kirkus Reviews. She loves hearing from readers. Visit her website for updates on new releases at www.jenniferprobst.com. Sign up of her newsletter at www.jenniferprobst.com/newsletter for a free book.


Wednesday, February 26, 2025

COVER REVEAL - Murder at the English Manor


 A glamorous engagement celebration in an English country manor house… and a local maid dead. Somebody call Kitty Underhay!

At home in Devon, Kitty is attending a ball at the very grand Markham Hall. With celebrations in full swing and everyone kitted out in their glad rags, Kitty and Matt enjoy the champagne. But the next morning, the party feels well and truly over when Kitty stumbles across a body while out walking her dog, Bertie. The maid, Agnes, is dead, and everyone at Markham Hall is a suspect…

Kitty and Matt set about piecing together the puzzle as the streamers are swept away and empty glasses gathered up. But who could the murderer be? The other maids seem shifty; Lord and Lady Faversham, the hosts, are not without motive, and even Kitty’s grandmother is keeping her cards close to her chest this time…

But then a safe filled with precious jewels has its lock broken, and another body is found tangled up in the weeds of the lake in the grounds. Kitty wonders if the poor guest knew their dancing days were almost over when they were merrily sipping punch the night before? And what secrets are the other guests hiding…

Can Kitty save the next victim at the eleventh hour? Or will this really be a weekend to die for?

Fans of Agatha Christie, T.E. Kinsey or Verity Bright will adore this totally charming murder mystery. The perfect treat for cozy crime fans!

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Author Bio:

Helena Dixon is the author of the best-selling Miss Underhay murder mystery series and lives in Devon. Married to the same man for over thirty-five years she has three daughters, a cactus called Spike, and a crazy cockapoo. She is allergic to adhesives, apples, tinsel and housework. She was winner of The Romance Prize in 2007 and Love Story of the Year 2010 as Nell Dixon.


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BLOG TOUR - Gone in the Storm

  


DESCRIPTION:


Getting in his car was a mistake. But as the frigid air whipped through her thin coat, she felt too cold to say no. Now, snowflakes settle on her long dark lashes. Ice-cold and forever fifteen years old, she’ll never see her mother’s smile again…

As the biggest snowstorm the Outer Banks has seen in decades ravages the coastline, Detective Casey White is called to an abandoned junk yard miles beyond the marshes. Teenager Jill Carter’s body is posed on her back, a look of terror frozen on her beautiful face. Casey’s heart breaks for Jill’s family. She vows she’ll do whatever it takes to find this merciless killer who left this girl out in the cold all alone.

But the unforgiving blanket of snow will soon claim the crime scene, and the team are up against the clock to catalogue any vital evidence… then Casey notices strange objects arranged in patterns around the girl’s body. Among them is a selection of perfectly preserved autumn leaves that have no place in the salvage yard in the dead of winter.

When the new District Attorney goes above Casey’s head to charge Jill’s high school sweetheart with the crime, Casey is certain she’s making a mistake. The poor boy is terrified and heartbroken, but he isn’t a murderer. Casey must rush to make sense of the sparse, ritualistic evidence they have, before another life is ruined.

As the snow continues to fall, another young girl is found frozen forever, the same strange items displayed around her body in a deliberate ritual. And Casey knows now this is only the beginning… Can Casey hunt down a killer determined to add another teenage girl to his collection, before it is too late?

Fans of Lisa Regan, Elle Gray and Melinda Leigh will be up all night reading this totally addictive mystery thriller!


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Title:   Gone in the Storm
Author:  B. R. Spangler
Series:  Detective Casey White #12
Publisher:  Bookouture 
Genre:   Mystery & Thrillers 
Format:  Kindle ARC 
No. of Pages:  318
Date of Publication:  February 24, 2025
My Rating:   5 Stars

MY THOUGHTS:

Oh the tension! My heart pounded in my chest! The Outer Banks is experiencing debilitating snow as never before witnessed. This is not the only storm that Detective Casey White in her team are pitted against.

In this brilliant twelfth novel in the Detective Casey White series, Casey’s most recent case breaks her heart. In fact, trauma from her past enhances her compassion for victims. In this case, the body of a young woman is found under a thick layer of snow. Casey will pull out all of the stops to bring the killer to justice. 

Protecting the crime scene is near to impossible with the inclement snow, so Casey and her team are in a race against time. Conflict of another sort arises, leaving Casey to become protective over a suspect that she is sure did not commit the heinous crime. But, when the body of another young girl is soon found in the snow as well, Casey is truly scratching her head. 

As with previous books in the series, this one evokes intense emotions. The dynamic between Casey’s life with her husband, Jericho, and their two adopted children, as well as her complex working relationship with Tracy Fields, provides a compelling backdrop for Casey’s struggles. The shocking and surprising conclusion will leave readers eagerly anticipating the next installment in this captivating series.

Many thanks to Bookouture and to NetGalley for this ARC for review. This is my honest opinion.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

By day, B.R. Spangler pushes pixels, typing lines of code. When he's not developing software, or elbows deep in hardware, he is writing stories, plotting thrillers, or reading.

B.R. Spangler lives in Virginia with his wife and kids, as well as five cats, a parrot, a finch, a lizard.

 

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Tuesday, February 25, 2025

Review - Rescue on the Farm

Title:  Rescue on the Farm
Author Allie Pleiter
Series:   K9 Companions, Book 30
Publisher:  Love Inspired
Genre:   Inspirational Romance
Format:  Kindle ARC
No. of Pages:   208
Date of Publication:   February 25, 2025
My Rating:   4 Stars
DESCRIPTION:

They weren’t looking for love

But these puppies will bring them together

Police officer Grant Emerson’s temporary trip home is turning into a disaster. Instead of selling the family farm, his mom and aunts have opened an animal shelter—and already rescued several puppies! When neighboring single mother Meg Kittering offers to help, the matchmaking sisters are convinced she can cure Grant’s grumpiness, despite his protests. But behind Meg’s sunny smiles are struggles Grant can relate to. They’re both in need of love…but can they help each other accept it?

From Love Inspired: Uplifting stories of faith, forgiveness and hope.


MY THOUGHTS:

Temporarily exiled from his job due to subordination, Grant Emerson is planning to use his time helping his mother sell the family farm. However, his mother has other plans, which frustrates Grant. Former classmate Meg Kettering steps in to assist. Widowed with two daughters, Meg has certainly caught Grant’s attention.

This delightful story is a quick read, although there’s not much backstory about Grant’s job and the reasons behind his problems. One of the book’s charms is the litter of puppies that have just been born. Then there are Meg’s two adorable daughters. Everything comes together in this heartwarming love story.

Many thanks to Love Inspired and to NetGalley for this ARC for review. This is my honest opinion.


ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

An avid knitter, coffee junkie and firm believer that “pie makes everything better,” Allie Pleiter writes both fiction and non-fiction working on as many as four novels at a time. The bestselling author of over fifty books, Allie has enjoyed a twenty-year career with over 1.5 million books sold. In addition to writing, Allie maintains an active writing productivity coaching practice and speaks regularly on the creative process, publishing, and her very favorite topic—The Chunky Method of time management for writers. Visit her website at www.alliepleiter.com to learn more.

Review - Close Your Eyes and Count to 10

Title:  Close Your Eyes and Count to 10
Author Lisa Unger
Publisher:   Park Row
Genre:   Mystery & Thrillers
Format:  Audio ALC
Narrator:  Vivienne Leheny
Length:  11 hrs 34 mins
No. of Pages:   384
Date of Publication:   February 25, 2025
My Rating:   4 Stars
DESCRIPTION:

An extreme game of hide-and-seek turns deadly in this riveting new thriller from New York Times bestselling author Lisa Unger

When the real game begins, who will make it to the count of 10?

Charismatic daredevil and extreme adventurer Maverick Dillan invites you to the ultimate game of hide-and-seek. But as the players gather on Falcao Island, the event quickly spirals into a chilling test of survival. A storm rages as a deadly threat stalks the contestants, turning the challenge into something far more sinister than the social media stunt it was intended to be.

Enter Adele, a single mother with a fierce determination to protect her children at all costs. When she begins the game, she unwittingly enters a twisted web of deception and intrigue. Can she maneuver through the treacherous storm and the relentless competition and get home to her family? In a ruthless battle for survival where the stakes are higher than ever, the blurry line between the virtual and the real proves that the only person we can trust is ourselves.


MY THOUGHTS:

A reality show unlike any other unfolds. A million dollars awaits the winner of an extreme hide-and-seek game. Amidst the game of survival, the contestants face not only each other but also a brutal snowstorm.

Among the players is Adele, a single mother of two teenagers, abandoned by her husband, a man who stole millions, and bankrupted her family and countless others. Maverick Dillon, an extreme adventurer, should be a formidable opponent. However, they soon discover that things are not as they seem.

Danger and unexpected twists challenge the contestants, pushing them to the brink of life and death. It remains uncertain whether all the players will emerge victorious. Several other players resort to any means necessary to win, even crossing moral boundaries.

Vivienne Lehaney’s narration brings this fast-paced story to life, although careful listening is required when the point of view shifts. Mav’s exceptional survival skills make the challenges captivating as he faces Adele and the other contestants.

As a fan of reality shows of this nature, I found Lisa Unger’s latest book to be a riveting read. 

Many thanks to Park Row and to NetGalley for this ARC for review. This is my honest opinion.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Lisa Unger is the New York Times and internationally bestselling author of seventeen novels, including THE STRANGER INSIDE. With millions of readers worldwide and books published in twenty-six languages, Lisa Unger is widely regarded as a master of suspense. In 2019, she received two Edgar Award nominations, an honor held by only a few writers including Ruth Rendell and Agatha Christie. The Edgar-nominated UNDER MY SKIN is also a finalist for the prestigious Hammett Prize, and the Macavity Award for Best Novel. And the original short story THE SLEEP TIGHT MOTEL is a #1 bestselling single.

Unger's critically acclaimed books have been voted "Best of the Year" or top picks by the Today show, Good Morning America, Entertainment Weekly, Amazon, IndieBound and many others. Her writing has appeared in The New York Times, Wall Street Journal, NPR, and Travel+Leisure. She lives on the west coast of Florida with her family.

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BLOG TOUR - The Younger Woman



DESCRIPTION:

A woman’s confession about her husband to an enigmatic stranger sparks a dangerous cat and mouse game in this riveting domestic thriller about divorce, manipulation, and revenge, perfect for fans of Sally Hepworth and Jeneva Rose.

Gabby and Fred have just begun to adapt to their new life as empty nesters when Gabby makes a stunning realization: She can't stand her husband.

One night at a bar, Gabby meets an enigmatic younger woman named Ellis, and in a haze of drunkenness, she confesses that she wishes Fred dead. Surely she didn't expect anything to come of it, but when she tries to track Ellis down again, she realizes that Ellis might not have been who she said she was.

As Gabby begins to unravel the truth about Ellis, and what Fred might be hiding, she is thrown into a whirlwind of lies and manipulation. How much is she willing to risk to expose the truth? And how will she get even?

Buy Links:

HarperCollins page: https://www.harpercollins.com/products/the-younger-woman-cate-ray?variant=42629286952994
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Amazon: https://www.amazon.ca/Younger-Woman-Novel-Cate-Ray/dp/0778368335

Title:  The Younger Woman

Author:  Cate Ray

Publisher:  Park Row

Genre:   Psychological Thriller

Format:  Kindle ARC and Audio ALC

Length:  12 hrs

Narrator:  Hannah Curtis

No. of Pages:   336

Date of Publication:   February 25, 2024

My Rating:   4 Stars

MY THOUGHTS:

Imagine feeling desperate about becoming an empty nester, but instead of that, you’re consumed by the thought that you despise your husband. This feeling even leads you to entertain dark thoughts.


After a few drinks, Gabby starts talking to a stranger named Ellis. She talks about her husband, Fred, and how she’s repulsed by him, even wishing him dead. Was it the drink talking, or is this something Gabby genuinely wishes would happen? Ellis takes this literally, and they open a Pandora’s box.


Fred has no idea what’s about to hit him. In fact, nefariousness isn’t just Gabby’s problem. Fred isn’t a saint. Secrets, lies, and manipulation intertwine as Gabby, Fred, and Ellis follow crazy paths that could end things for at least one of them.


Although this book was a bit of a slow start, this intense thriller really captured my attention. Then factor in an extra layer due to the spectacular narration by Hannah Curtis. Her performance truly brought this thrilling book to life. 


Many thanks to Park Row and to NetGalley for this ARC for review. This is my honest opinion.

Please enjoy the following excerpt:
One

How did we get here—when did things become so bad? There are so many triggers and alarm bells, I’m overheating with the effort of trying to pick just one. And now Alice is leaving and if I don’t get ahold of myself I’m going to miss it. 

Alongside our car, a student is saying goodbye to her parents, tucking in her camisole. Fred is watching her, instead of Alice. And I’m watching Fred, instead of Alice. 

She’s at the door of her accommodation block, about to disappear inside. And then, suddenly, she falters, looking back at us, twisting her fingers together. She may as well be in pigtails and a gingham dress on her first day of school. 

My seat belt snaps off. “Gabby…” Fred says. 

I’m already halfway up the path, pulling her into my arms, inhaling her hair. Alice, sweet Alice. 

I don’t want her to leave me. That’s the truth. I don’t want her to leave me with her father. I can’t bear it. Everything is heating, melting, as my entire system gives way to emotion. 

And then I stop myself. I can’t do this to her. I pull back, grasp her shoulders, my arms rigid like tent poles holding us together. “You’re going to have a wonderful time, sweetheart. This is an exciting new adventure.” 

She’s looking at me skeptically, but I don’t so much as breathe. I can be a tower for her. It’s only university; she’ll be home again in ten weeks. 

“Thanks,” she says, her blue eyes filling, becoming sealike. I see my mother in her then and remove my hands from her shoulders in case I’m gripping too hard. “I love you, Mom.” 

“And I love you too… Now go.” I give her a little pat, then watch as she keeps walking and this time she doesn’t look back. 

I think I’m going to die as the door closes behind her, and then it’s me standing there, faltering, looking behind me, twisting my fingers together. Except that’s it not my parents I’m in turmoil about, but my husband. There’s a huge distance between us, much further than the twenty steps it would take me to reach him. He’s not even looking at me. His head is turned toward two attractive girls sitting underneath a tree. I could be setting off a distress flare and he wouldn’t notice. 

Gazing at the door that swallowed Alice, I consider following her, hiding inside the laundry room for a few weeks. And then Fred honks the car horn and reluctantly I take those steps back to him. 

Inside the car, I sit with my bag on my lap, staring straight ahead. He knows not to say anything, starts the engine. I’m glad he’s driving, leaving me free to sob until I’m as dry as a raisin. He’s a steady driver, I’ll give him that. We’re at that stage after twenty-one years of marriage where I’m grateful for his practical skills. I’m sure he feels the same about me and my lasagna. 

As we slowly pull away, everything becomes a blur through my tears. I don’t know if it’s my hormones, but I’m overwhelmed: missing Alice, worrying about aging, wishing Fred wouldn’t look at this collage of youth as though I’m the crusty glue underneath that no one sees. 

I’m uncomfortably hot, even with the air-conditioning on. It’s very warm for September—shorts, strappy tops; a parade of gorgeousness. And just like me and my jumbled thoughts, Fred doesn’t know which way to look. 

Finally, as we pass through the entrance gates, he glances at me, patting my knee as though I’m man’s best friend. “She’ll be fine.” 

Our youngest has left home and that’s all he can say. “Aren’t you upset?” I stop crying for a moment, curious about his response. 

“Of course.” He doesn’t take his eyes off the road. “But this is what you encouraged her to do, wasn’t it? And she worked hard enough to get there. What’s the point in being upset? We can’t keep her tied up at home.” 

I don’t know about that. If there were a sane way to do it, I’d probably give it a go. 

I hiccup, gazing out the window, adding emotional detachment to the list of differences between us. Here I am, breaking my heart. And he’s tapping the wheel to “summer breeze, makes me feel fine,” the salmon tint of his shirt making him seem pinker than he is. I bought that for him. And he needs a haircut. The ancient scar on his knee is shimmering where he’s caught a tan from all the golf he’s played this summer. 

He’s good for fifty-two—doesn’t have to work as hard as I do to stay in shape, even though we’re the same age, our birthdays only a week apart; both Taurus. I always thought this was nice, but someone once said two bulls in one house? Brave! And it was one of those things that went around my head for longer than it should have. 

I don’t think of myself as a bull; sometimes I find it difficult to ask for what I need. And Fred is too tall for a bull. He’s less goofy and cheeky now he’s middle-aged, but every so often I see the old him—the way he was, with curls, John Lennon glasses. I start crying again. And this time, it’s for us. 

“She’ll be okay, won’t she?” 

He looks at me. “Yes.” 

We don’t say anything after that. I cry behind my shades all the way home, sucking my lip. It’s seventy-nine miles from Exeter to Shelby. It will be longer for Alice by train—nearly four hours. I’ll send her money so she can come home whenever she needs to. 

What if she never needs to? 

I hiccup again, but Fred doesn’t notice. I told him I was going to be okay today and he’s taken me at my word. 

I’ve been dreading it. It was bad enough when Will left for Edinburgh. And now he has a girlfriend, Zara, who wears cutoff shorts with the pockets hanging out. She’s lovely, very polite; but she’s twenty and in love with my son and there’s a tiny part of me that wishes she weren’t. 

At home, I don’t go straight inside but linger on the step, gazing at the baby oaks the children planted eight years ago when we moved in. The thing with trees is they stay where you put them. 

Inside the house, it smells of Alice’s perfume, which nearly sets me off again. 

“Will you be okay if I do an hour’s work?” Fred says, opening the door to the basement. 

“Go ahead. I’m seeing Jam later.” 

He smiles. “Well, if she can’t sort you out, then no one can.” 

But I wanted it to be you. 

That’s what I want to say. Yet it wouldn’t sound right, not anymore. Too much has changed between us. There have been too many little betrayals, and some not so little ones. 

“I’ll give you a shout before I go,” I say. “Would you like a coffee?” 

“No, thanks,” he calls out, already halfway down the stairs. 

The kitchen seems bigger than it was this morning, the breakfast bar stools painfully empty, Alice’s cereal bowl in the sink; I might keep it there for a few days. Opening the fridge, I remove a Pinot Grigio, pour a glass, taking it outside with a jar of olives. A breeze is rustling the palm trees on the patio, fluttering the surface of the pool. I take a seat, a cardigan draped over my shoulders like some Hollywood star. 

Sometimes it helps if I glamorize the situation, imagining myself delivering lines, acting out the pain on screen. Sometimes it doesn’t. To be honest, I feel a bit silly. 

I put my cardigan on properly, unscrewing the jar lid, chewing an olive, my eye drawn again to the oaks lining the border. They’ll be beautiful this autumn. It seems cruel that children fly the nest to university as the leaves begin to fall. Why couldn’t it be spring—give parents half a chance? 

I take a long drink of wine, twisting to look up at Alice’s turret. She wanted a sea view when we moved in. Ten years old and she knew a premium room when she saw it. Suddenly, I want to be up there, to lie on her bed among her abandoned clothes and stuffed toys. 

Upstairs, the room is surprisingly cool. I set the wine bottle on her dressing table, pouring myself another glass. “Well, cheers, baby girl.”  Her bed looks inviting, despite the pile of ratty tracksuit bottoms. Don’t take those, Alice. 

I lie down, drawing my knees to my chest, hugging Big Bear, who smells of Alice’s coconut shampoo. She still uses her bear as a pillow. I cry again, gazing at the photo stuck haphazardly on the wardrobe door: her and Will last year, by our pool, hands draped around each other. 

My babies. Both gone. 

I’m somewhere up high, on a clifftop, the sea crashing beneath me. It takes me a moment and then I remember that I’ve been here before, locked inside this ghastly dream, and then dread begins to drain through me because I know what’s about to happen. 

I wrestle to wake up, but can’t. The rough gorse is grasping my ankles, locking me in place. I don’t want to watch but have to, can’t escape. He’s there now, standing too close to the edge. Fred? Or Will? Don’t let it be Will.

I writhe in panic, ripping my legs on the gorse. I call out, my voice lost against the roaring sea. Get away from the edge! Get away from there! I can’t move or even turn my head away. I know someone else is coming, can sense them drawing closer. I struggle again, screaming, as they shunt the man forward over the treacherous edge. 

I fight as hard as I can, my face wet with tears. And then I’m free. 

Sitting up, I stare around me, the back of my hair wet with perspiration. Letting go of Big Bear, I gather the wine bottle and glass, tiptoeing from Alice’s room. The house feels as empty and fragile as a greenhouse. Outside, the whisper of the sea sounds like passing traffic. I check the time on my phone: thirty minutes until I meet Jamillah. 

In my en suite bathroom, I feel sick with fatigue. My tongue feels bulbous and there’s a sleep line running all the way from my cheek to my chest, as though I’m a cardboard cutout that’s been folded in two, ready to lie flat for the night. 

I put on some makeup, fix up my hair, but that seems to accentuate my eyes—the fact that they’re puffy, swollen—so I let it down again, telling myself that this is as good as it’s going to get. I choose a T-shirt, jeans, and then head downstairs, knocking on Fred’s cave door. 

It smells of computer—that hot wire smell. “I’m off.” 

He looks up, removes his glasses, rubs the bridge of his nose. “Is it that time already?” 

I nod. “There’s pasta salad in the fridge.”  

“Thanks, my love.” He frowns at me. 

“You all right? You look a bit…” 

“I dozed off. And I had that nightmare again.” 

“It’s okay. Everything’s fine. I’m here. You’ll always have me.” He smiles, puts his glasses back on, focusing on the screen again. He works a lot of hours these days, more than he used to, but then so do I. 

He’s perfectly right though. The kids fly in and out like swallows, but good old Fred will always be here. 

“See you later,” I say. 

As I go down the driveway to the side gate, I check my phone to see if Alice has messaged. She hasn’t. I wonder what she’s doing. I think about texting her, but don’t. It’s not going to help her to let go, move on. 

It’s a ten-minute walk to the seafront. I don’t see anyone as I go. My thoughts swirl, froth about and by the time I enter the bar, I know I’m going to have to tell Jam what I finally admitted to myself today about Fred: I absolutely hate him.

Excerpted from THE YOUNGER WOMAN by Cate Ray. Copyright © 2025 by Cate Ray. Published by Park Row Books, an imprint of HarperCollins.


ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Cate Ray is the author of Good Husbands (2022, Park Row) and four previous novels of suspense published in the UK under the name Cath Weeks. She was named an Author to Watch by ELLE. She lives in Bath with her family.

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